Dearest readers, I will be turning 23 in just a week's time. This means that I am arriving into adulthood officially, no longer close enough to claim being a teenager but not old enough to be doing anything remotely adult...aside from the usual finishing college, starting my career, and figuring out who the heck I am as a person in the process. But I look forward to being 23 with a new goal. I will be better at 23 than I was at 22 or even 21. Your twenties are supposed to be for making mistakes, taking intuitive leaps in your life, and trying to figure out what you really want. They are not for pleasing everyone else in your life or trying to do what is "expected" of you as a person by your parents, society, or even some larger force that governs our lives in this country known as the government. My mom once told me this wise quote: "You are the only one responsible for your happiness. If you're unhappy with your life, then change it. Make it better. Only you hold that power." And now that I am approaching an important part of my life as my graduation date is getting closer, I can honestly say that I am living my life for me for the first time ever. I'm making plans, trying to save money, and applying to a graduate school of my choice to do something I passionately believe in.
Something that I'm looking forward to a lot in the coming year is flying to New York to meet my best friend Leanna for the first time face-to-face. We have been friends for over a year now and have spent virtually every day for the last year talking to one another through phone, instant messenger, Skype, or any other way you can think of. She is my twin spirit and one of my very best friends. I can't wait to meet her face-to-face for the first time and get to spend a week with her in New York, away from Texas. She is one of the best people I know and probably one of the only people that really understands me. I can't wait to meet her face-to-face and finally get to hang out with her for real.
Another thing that will be changing in the coming year of my life is the fact that my friendships will be changing. People who matter will stay in touch with me and I with them, but if you make no efforts even after I have tried...then it isn't worth all the struggle and work on my end of things. Friendship is a two way street, not a one way where one poor traffic cop does all the work. That is something that I have noticed in the past few years...I'm the one usually making all the effort in a friendship, which is not how it's supposed to be. I love all of my friends and don't want to lose any of them, but I am at a point in my life where I cannot be doing all the work or I will physically exhaust myself to the point of breaking.
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